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Thursday, March 20, 2014

First Dream and Remembering it at Age 3 - Spiders in the Attic

Thirty years ago I experienced my first dream, well at least the first one that I can recall starting at age 3. It's the dream that started my fear of spiders. Anytime I think about my first dream, it terrifies me to this day.

So here goes:

It was Winter in 1983, and I woke from bed because I was cold and couldn't sleep.  So I got out of my bed and decided to go outside for a walk.  Barefoot of course.

I opened the front door and my neighborhood turned into a large open snowy field.  I stepped outside and felt the need to explore. I mean, what three year old wouldn't want to go out in the middle of the night barefoot in the snow?

The field appeared as if it went on for miles.  As I continued walking, I noticed that the snow slowly began to melt. After the snow all melted I could see more clearly in the distance. I soon started to approach a really old distressed barn. It was rather scary looking and uninviting.  Oddly enough, I wasn't going to let fear keep this three year old from exploring.

As I opened the barn doors all I could see was black.  Nothing but endless black.  I felt scared and brave all at the same time.

SpideyI slowly stepped forward and began walking - tip toeing.  You know that feeling when you sense that someone is watching you?  That's how it felt in that dark barn.  I heard squealing and hissing sounds. I slowly continued forward and felt something land on my right shoulder.  It was too dark to see it, but I knew whatever it was, that it wasn't going away anytime soon. The darkness in the barn was starting to cease and I knew that if I turned my head, I would now be able to see what was sitting on my shoulder.  I looked over and looking right back at me was a spider with eight red glowing eyes - he opened his mouth and said BOO! I jumped about ten feet off the ground and screamed in fear.  The only thing that I felt I needed to do at that point WAS RUN! But my legs weren't moving. In fact I was just standing there watching more and more of the same type of spider appear all around me in the barn. Hundreds of them.  What a tangled web I weaved for myself.

I started yelling for my mom and eventually my feet started to work again and I ran out of that barn running for my life. I just kept running and running and I knew I wasn't safe until I made it back home.  I finally arrived to my house, went in the kitchen and made a glass of chocolate milk.  I needed a drink since I just ran for miles it seemed.  I eventually made my way up the stairs and to my room.  I decided I had enough adventure for the night and quietly went back to bed.